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I'm not emo ;)

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 12:18:19 GMT

It's been a hectic week, like srsly sigh..I've been occupied with loads of assignments in the past few weeks, this is driving me crazy man T_T and now I'm free finally..i can sit infront my laptop without doing anything instead of searching information for my assignment, research n so on, i can finally do laundry, i can finally read cleo, i can finally sitting here slack around and any other stuff which is not related to ass-ignment! :@
But this also means that final exam is around the corner, which is the time for me to start studying! Oh poor me T_T

Lemme share something here..My mum was in kl the other day, i feel really bad for not meeting up with her..she was actually just got back from bali and dropped by kl for a night, so she was in a very tight schedule that day..on friday morning, she called me, and asked if i wanted to meet her as she will pass by my area. But i was still dreaming and sleeping the moment she called me(was doing the damn assignment till really really late the night before), and i couldn't believe i rejected her...sigh..she even told me that she wanted to see me as it's been such a long time since she saw me, but this bad daughter rejected her and continue to sleep instead :(

So i actually planned to sleep for a lil longer, wake up and going to meet up with her before she leaves to tawau in the evening. But i was too tired, couldn't wake up, overslept...it was 1 something by the time i woke up, i felt really bad seriously, was thinking how could i miss out the chance to see her since i don't get to see her that often? and i started to cry..sigh..she just wanted to see me for a while, she knows she wont be seeing me until december, but me? cant fulfill her eventhough just a small lil thing she granted for..I'm so disappointed with myself...i called her and told her that i overslept..i started to pour out everything..coz i was so stressed, i slept at around 4 or 5 everynight due to the heavy workload..and felt sorry for not meeting up with her..and couldn't control myself, cried so badly..once again i made her worried about me sigh..she then comforted me and told me not to stress myself too much, go out with sis, bf or something, to relax..

Why human being tend to behave like that? You'll only realize something important and started to appreciate and regret after that something is gone..perhaps this is really human nature..

Sometimes i feel that I'm really big time loser, as i always fail to balance things up, be it to the family, friendship, relationship or studies, pathetic isn't it :s It's really tough for me, but believe me, i will learn, and try, won't give up, and never give up ;)

Er..guess i shouldn't rant too much, a lil too long-winded right :P But they are really my thoughts for the moment, i should really learn how to treasure what i have, appreciate them, not taking things for granted, be more mature and see things from different angles..yea all these are seriously what i have to learn, wish me luck :)

On a side note, am going back kmn soon! who will be around this weekend? teehehe i miss my aunts and couzies already! :D

i need motivation

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 11:05:02 GMT

I'm so screwed :( laziness is killing me..rescue me please anyone? seriously need more motivation, can't behave that way anymore ljy!!
Midsem break is gonna end real soon, gotta catch up with tons of courseworks sigh T_T stressed to the max!
Spent my holidays in kemaman, went to the beach almost everyday! How relaxing! which i can't feel that way in a stressful place like this :( how i wish i'm still in kmn right now haih..

miss my couzieee so much!

Awana! It's been so long since i went there!

My very first time to fly a kite! :D

All time favorite beach - Cherating beach!

Siao poh ^^

Doing our thang as usual

Of course the banana tagged along too :P

Sunrise session, my very first time as well, with the loved one!

Fall in love with such magnificent scenery!

Lao Jin Yu, Mao Sheng Jin = LJY, MSJ :P

My super chan look! akibat yang tido hanya dua jam ni...!

My second advance bday celebration from dad's side, siang & quinn were there too! :)

K-session as usual and we had great laugh LOL!

For more pics, please visit fb hee~

That's all k thanks byebye see you =.=

Title? I can't think of any :P

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 17:03:04 GMT

Hi peeps~
Just to update a lil so i don't feel my blog is always the same entry :P

Guess what, i went to uni yesterday and so many people asked if i was wearing falsies :P
Of course i said no la k i don't even know how to apply falsies coz i'm noob like that!

But the mascara really makes my lashes look so nice! Not like any other brands which will make them look like some spider legs that stick together :s

niceeeee rite rite rite??? (ljy pls la dun syok sendiri :s)

Gotta off to bed, my goodness it's 2am o.O I think i'm getting used to sleep late these days sigh..say hi to eyebags, dark circles T__T omg i'm getting old T___T!! am still 20 though :P until next month! noooooooooo plssss T_T

Teeheehee..i got huhu as my companion when he's not around!

Btw, he's comin' back to msia tomorrow, like finally! :D *grinssssss*

Till then! Good night folks! ;)

Hello again!

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 14:52:16 GMT

Sorry for abandoning my blog once again :P Kinda lost the mojo to blog =.=

Well not much happening stuffs lately, still the same bored dull life, especially this one whole week without him who's currently enjoying heaven life in Japan now :s

Assignments stressed me out like seriously..got so depressed when i actually have to face them from morning until night, then wake up the next morning and continue with them again sigh...but i'm done and gotta continue with them again after the midsem break..ohya speaking about midsem break, which is just 1 week ++ away from now! Time flies, no?

Haven't been blogging for like two months i suppose? So..to sum things up, i went to malacca again, and back to kmn the week after malacca! Happening weeks i've got :D

Here's some recent picasss!

Taming Sari Tower :D

Sungai Melaka~

Pre-bday celebration(which was wayyyyy too early!)

<3

Bitch was there also!! :D

Awwwww finally! After so longggggggg for not seeing them!

accidentally found out this =.=

and of course not forgetting my ss pic :P oh btw i've shifted to another house again =.=!

Webcam-ed with him, who's so far away from me, with his yukata T_T

Damn miss him lor can ah, faster come back plsssssssssss T__T

Alright i guess that's all, till then! xoxo

hahahihihohoheheHUHU! wtf

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 14:54:25 GMT

So i'm back in subang, phew~

And i'm back to work again! Finally get to gather with the tgv gang after so long and what we did actually was just jalan jalan, chit-chatting, fooling around, talking jokes and such, coz it's a monday, not much customers :D

But you know what, Harry Potter is on screen soon! wtf man, this weekend is gonna be busy like hell! Don't even dare to imagine T_T

Wahaha washroom :X

Told you we're not working! :D

So today he got me something!

Tadah! Say hello to HUHU! =.=''

Actually we spotted it a month ago but too bad, they had got no new unit for this cutie as i don't feel like owning the displayed ones. And him, still doesn't give up, asked the staff if they have any new unit for this soft toy, surprisingly they do! So off he bought it without any consideration!

Kesian the poor lil fluffy toy behind :X

Thanks! <3

p/s : Am so looking forward to the outing this thursday! My bitch's birthday!!

7-11

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 17:30:44 GMT

Hello people i'm in my hometown aka kemaman right now :) Am going back to subang tomorrow, ishhhh >.<

Just to update a lil as i'm in my bitch's house right now..It's been soooooooo long! Since i last stepped into her house! I miss all those stayovers in her house! :D

Anyway I'm here for her 21st birthday party, erm, to be specific, advance birthday party :P
Few pictures before i go off ;)

My bitch <3

Actually it's not her exact bday today but his bf's instead =.=

Last but not least a group pic~

Malacca

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 14:59:53 GMT

Guess what people, i'm in malacca right now :D It's a very sudden plan though..Totally love every moments like this <3

Actually something ruined our day and things went so so wrong sigh, but thank God it was all good again :)

Reached mlk around 7 something and had dinner over his place. After the dinner, went over to Sungai Melaka(?) to enjoy the night view :D

Nice right ;)

^^v

wtf lol =.=''

<3

So will be headed back to hometown 2 days later, gtg bye peeps!

Woohoooooooooo~~!

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 18:18:36 GMT

It's 2.36am now and i'm just done with washing up and stuffs. Went out for the whole freaking day and i had real good time, i mean it <3

Well, since i've got the mojo to blog now, i might as well update a lil aite. I'm officially done with sem5, happy sial can die wtf. Somehow i still can't get used to it, i mean, when i was watching movie just now, i had this sudden thought, that if i needed to continue my revision later on, but no, my exam is now over, i don't fking need to worry about short of time to study, those readings and stuffs, and i can go wherever i want to, do whatever i want to, don't need to watch out the time that worried i can't finish to study, without burdens. Ya know, the feeling is like, hmm..undescribable :)

Mega sales has just started, so yeah, went to shop with my pisang aka banana today :D It's been so long since our last visit to midvalley, so there we go...! Freaking lotsa people lor can..so damn crowded! I bumped into few coursemates, and even my lecturer(TYTYTYTYTYYYYYYY)! :X

Ps left at around 8pm. Mo & I wanted to catch IceAge3 initially but there were limited seats ish..so we headed to TGV pyramid instead, and get a midnight show. Seriously, the show was awesome and i love it so so much! Funny funny funny and cuteeeee! Anyone willing to watch with me again????? :P

Some funny funny picass :P

Alright gotta catch some sleeps! Till then!

p/s: Thanks for putting so much efforts just to spend times with me, appreciate lots! *hearts*

1 moreeeeeeee!

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 02:10:13 GMT

can i screammmmm?! super excited now! just done with the 3rd paper and one more to go! Cannot wait cannot wait!

Aku sangat hebat la can..i slept at 3 something last night and woke up at 6.30am this morning :s luckily i did not feel sleepy throughout the exam..
ish..some of my friends are done with finals and started their holidays and i'm still stuck with piles of notes here wtf *envy*

Hmmm...should i take a nap now, or continue with the revision??? hmmmmm....

Dead fish x_x

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 12:59:18 GMT

Hi all, i'm not dead yet, but wait..almost dead..not half-dead though, more than half i'd say..oh okay stop the crap, i'm crazy, thanks to exam :) !#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#!~!

Fyi i'm dealing with 4 subjects this sem and all them 4 are level 3 paper, well done right, i thought i could cope well if i work harder but hell no, in order to deal with them, i guess i have to study every single day since the beginning till the end of the sem, which is not my cup of tea, if so, i'm not the lau jia ying u know.
I'd say this sem is the toughest sem for me ever, this is so fuck up. Tutorials, assignments and finals, tortured me to death, sigh.

I've been sleeping late recently to burn the midnight oil, and this caused the serious eyebag and dark circle, headache and such. This is so so so sickening. I wake up with burdens everyday, scared that i can't get those chapters done before the exam, like wtf? fking hate la can? i don't even dare to sleep a lil while more because these burdens are hunting me and what's the point if i continue sleeping with them along???

Sigh, for few times i felt like giving up and not gonna continue with those notes, textbooks, exercises and all, because i really could take the pressure no more, but circumstances don't allow me to give up, i know i'm gonna regret if i give up just like that. So i keep telling myself, it'll be over very soon and just bear with it for few more days. For few times i felt like crying 'coz i felt too stressful with all these shits but i told myself cry helps nothing, until this morning, i just couldn't hold my tears and burst out crying. How sad.

And now, i'm tired with readings and stuffs, i had this thought of stop those readings and head to the exam hall with my mind blank tomorrow, but i know i can't la, i'll regret 1 la, ok? so i'm here to blog and rant as much as i can, and get my ass back to study later! Tomorrow's paper at 8am gila sial! less than 11 hours till the exam and i have yet to finish those readings and blogging here instead, screw me!

I just can't wait till the day after tomorrow(saturday) so i'll be free from these damn shits! Lotsa outings are waiting for me :D Shopping sprees, movie marathons, singK sessions, parties(i need alco so badly now wtf), genting trip, uni enquiry, hometown, facial pampering, hair treatment, part time job, bitch's 21st, etc etc! Soooooooooo looking forward to them!!

Will update more once i'm done with the nightmare!

I know you miss me :P (perasan gila)

Really gotta back to study now, wish me luck :(